Bec, 19, Arts student, Melbourne.
"There isn’t a single voice box in heaven. There are only ears."
-Andrea Gibson
"There isn’t a single voice box in heaven. There are only ears."
-Andrea Gibson
Booze bus on Shut The Fuck Up street, right next to Do You Want Your Friends To Die
Original song. Untitled as of yet.
So lonely
So shy
I’m fire and water
The lid and the eye
Set alight flames
Extinguish with doubt
When another lights up
My fire goes out
My heart burns
My skin it freezes
An icy stare
A fingertip teases
I poke the embers
Then dive in the water
I am the lover
The innocent daughter
How can I detach myself from
My harsh remarks, my spiteful tongue?
I can’t
I’m not worthy of forgiveness
But you believe I’m not grotesque
In my heart
If you look inside
I’m naked and I cannot hide
And the ugly side of me
I must own
How can I master my past
When saying sorry is an art
I’m yet to learn?
Well I can paint over my face
With self-interest and tainted grace
In the wrong shade
Was supposed to be writing an essay… ended up messing around with Reaper and starting this song. Making beats with my mouth is fun.
Breathe In Breathe Out // Thelma Plum
Does she touch your ear like I used to?
I know you like it.
Does she kiss you there like I used to?
I know you like it.
Because I’m in love with a boy like you,
I hope you feel it too.
I hope you feel it too.
(Source: Spotify, via closeyoureyesto-hear)
If I have learnt anything this year it is the importance of not judging people before you know them and keeping an open mind. I have always considered myself an open minded person but I have come to the realisation that I am certainly not, especially when it comes to meeting new people.
I take a long time to get to know people and warm up to them. I’ve come to realise that this is in part because I judge people before I know them. The most detrimental thing I do is assume how people feel about me - I assume they don’t like me and that they think of me negatively. I have come to learn how important it is to get to know people because you could end up having an amazing connection with them and they could be a significant part of your life. On the training days before the roadtrip I remember how I felt about my group. I definitely made judgements about them. I could never have imagined how close we would become in such a short time. They turned out to be amazing people who I have very special relationships with. Now I think - imagine what my life would be like if I really made an effort to get to know everyone in my life? The most important friends you have in life aren’t necessarily going to hit off with you straight away. Sometimes it happens like that, sometimes it takes work. But it is so worth it if you put in the effort.
As one of my very wise friends once said (paraphrased), if you don’t take the chance to talk to a person, you are potentially losing a friend. I would like to extend this from taking the leap to simply talk to someone to giving them the benefit of any doubts you have and actually getting to know them.
This is probably something that is just common sense for most people. I have always known that it is bad to make judgements about people before you know them, but I have never fully understood how important it is until now.
And I’m getting kind of excited for all the possibilities it would open up. If I do take time off, I can’t let myself waste it. I want to use the time to work on music and perform as much as I can, improve my health, work on changing for the better and go on adventures. I’ll pretty much have 3/4 of a year off including the winter and summer break. This could be the best decision I ever make, but I also can’t just expect amazing things to happen - I have to be proactive, and the rest is up to fate.
